huiting,, can i love you?

pls stay away from me,
if youre not gonna catch me when i fall.

12:25 am

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i wish, wishing for you to find you way.
and i'll hold on for all you need, thats all we need to say.
i'll take my chances, while you take your time with this game you play.
but i cant control your soul.
you need to let me know;
you leaving or you gonna stay.

10:49 pm

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i cant explain the things that were bothering me. and sometimes i cant even explain how i feel. this kind of feeling sucks. cos i know theres so many problems and yet i cant even solve any of it. ive been running away, running away from everything. i looked myself in the mirror and i realized that the girl in the mirror was so unfamiliar. my health was deteriorating, falling sick again and again. i stumbled and fall, yet i cant pick myself up.

ive been wasting my time away. theres so much to do and i just sat that and idled my time away. how uncool. i need someone to constantly reminding me that im having major exams soon, REAL SOON.

shoot me down, bang bang.

im feeling so silly and i kept on feeling sorry for myself. and kept pity myself that i landed in this state. thats the results of choosing the wrong path. yes, how stupid. you wouldnt know how i feel.

p.s.: i need someone that i can rely on, complain to, whine to, hold on to. will you be the someone?

11:14 pm

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hate to know that im still thinking about you.

2:45 am

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let me say one more thing before these beautiful mistakes we’ve made run dry
well I thought this would all blow by and everything would just turn out alright and this would all be fine
so say goodbye to days like these.
i’ll give it one more try and hope it all seems better in your eyes
well maybe not this time.

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i found out that im still searching for your face in the midst of the crowds. tell me why am i doing this. i cant bring myself to love&hate you. loving you is wrong. hating you is tiring. tell me what am i suppose to do baby. im tired. not that i need you badly now. im just fine without you. but would life be better with you? well, this is a qns without an answer.

tell me, tell me what else can i do.
its aint true that im okaye.

12:17 pm

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ive give out my best.
& im at my best alrdy.
so dont ask too much from me.
pls dont take me for granted.
cos eventually you will lose me.

4:19 pm

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this has nothing to do with you.
i dont miss you, yes i really dont.
we are notfriend now.
we never once became friends isnt it?
its time for you to get outta my head.

2:37 pm

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your heart is empty.
you know how i feel but you avoided it.
you kept a distance from it and never want to feel the same.
i wanna dig out my heart like what Turner did.
keep it in a treasure box and it'll be safe.

p.s : if only i know how you feel.

11:54 am

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i love it when you call.
but you dont call at all.

11:47 pm

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lj's down.
irritating.

happy 18th birthday ms sim xiao hui!

2:25 am

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if i have a choice, i ll choose to sleep forever.
cos you always appear in my dreams.
always. and i dont know why. prolly think of you too much.
dreams - the only place where i can see&feel you.
its so unrealistic, they say.
but i dont have a choice. cos i miss you too badly.

11:48 pm

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I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

10:41 pm

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its you.
dont turn around. dont look away.

3:00 am

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and anyway, any idea what does this means?

.. -- .-. .- -. -.. -.--

1:28 am

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BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
i cant get you outta my mind!
i just miss you so so so so much!
i wanna see you soon. =(
youyouyou. look at what youve done to me.
-sighs.

1:16 am

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blogspot is finally working.
but i'll still stick to my lj!
cos i can lock up my posts there!
at least only friends can read! so get a lj account and add me as friend if you wanna read my locked up post!

i will not close down this blog. cos its going to be 4 year old! this will be my 494th entry!
okay, til here!

12:45 am

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exams break now! but theres still lessons going on til wednesday.
today is a happy day. had ding tai fung! all thanks to fnf, teeheehee. and caught spiderman3(again, i know).
and yay! tmr going back to seconday school to get my O lvl cert! finally im stepping into this school again. will be going with julian the 1day exboyfriend!

i never felt so happy until today. i know it doesnt mean anything, but still happy. (;

10:59 pm

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okay, i had a nong nong day!
went for service and it was good! had some fellowship and catching up with serling&jiayu&raymond&yangsu!
took long bus ride with serling and fell asleep on her shoulders. the bus ride lasted for 1hr!
met up with fools at town then to cine then bugis then tampines!
kj and darren accompanyed me by taking long train ride back home. thanks for being soooo nice. (;

there were times that i was really down, and i couldnt hold back my tears. vanny love, thanks for the hugs and shoulder that are always there for me.
like what fnf have said, smile like a fool!
i'll be very fineeeeeeeeeeeee. (;

11:17 pm

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如果你因为我而诚实
如果你看我的电影
听我爱的cd
如果你能带我一起旅行
如果你决定跟随感觉
为爱勇敢一次
如果你说我们有彼此
如果你会开始相信
这般恋爱心情
如果你能给我如果的事

2:43 am

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er, my tag was kinda dead. so put up the comment thingy. (;

12:25 am

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