ive got a date on three with serling. but im still typing this entry here. many things have ran thru my mind. am i being sensitive or mindless? but i think its not the way it should be. treating my loves one good and get nothing in turn. no names mentioned. i just think it wasnt right. is it just me feeling that we're not close or both of us feel the same way too. everyday waiting at home for their calls to ask 'how are you today?' or 'where have you gone today?' or 'what have you done today?' or even asking me out the next day. but im just like a idiot kept waiting and waiting. why do i always have to be the one who's making the call and asking them out? even if going out i'll be neglected sometimes. i think ive got alot of friends but i dont hear from them. whats the matter, i dont know. when i tried telling someone, pple will say that im sensitive. am i? i dont really know. sometimes we just hang out once in awhile and i think ive got lots of thing to catch up but no one is telling me anything. in the end i heard it from someone else. is this friends? i think they have long forgotten me. they asked me out because they have to. they afraid i will keep whining and saying they outcast me. i cant feel the love my friends have for me anymore. am i just being sensitive? enlighten me pls.
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